GG 6x01 Gone Maybe Gone

Blair: The two of us alone in your limo. You're really tempting fate, you know that? Unless that's your intention, of course. We're both back in New York doing what we have to do. Maybe our pact is just an excuse for us not to be together.

Chuck: Blair, I love you with all of my heart. And that is the reason we cannot take the chance of messing this up.

Blair: Sure. Because what would your father think if you failed. that I distracted you. That you sacrificed your empire for me.

Chuck: Blair, you are a distraction. 'Cause when we're together you're all I think about. And I would give up my empire for you. I would give up everything for you. After a couple nights in Monte Carlo, I lost track of all time.

Blair: We were exhausted and starving. I think I had an actual fever.

Chuck: That's not why we need to do this. And neither to prove a point to my father.

Blair: Then why? 

Chuck: In the past I blamed my mistakes on you and Bart was right on that count. It's the boy that blames the girl, not the man. And that's what I want to be with you. It won't be much longer, I promise. 

Happiness

Time,

Its the most precious gift you can give to anyone.

Spending time with family, friends.

Quality time. 

I will never ever forget any of them.

I find happiness. 

Happy? 

Reading is my passion. 

Because whenever I read, I feel happy.

Cooking and baking too.

I do feel happy but with anxiousness. 

Worry.

Swimming.

I would find calmness 

and happy.

Music.

Thank god for such a great invention. 

Sometimes you do want to turn away from the reality.

Movies.

I'm a movies maniac.

Because I feel like I'm in different world.

For a moment, from reality. 

Hurt

Always.

Always thought that somehow, I am important. 

To anyone.

I feel lonelier than ever.

I wish I'm in better condition. 

I care to much. 

To my family, friends. God knows maybe I care for strangers too.

I'm that person they find if they need helps.  

And be forgotten right after that. 

Do you know what's the worst thing? 

I'm the one who gets hurt at last.

Everytime. 

Because no one appreciate me. 

Always be left out in conversations.

Out of sight.

Out of essential.

They would say maybe I'm just too sensitive.

The truth is that I'm hurt. 

Hurt. 

Because no one appreciate me. 

:/

Jan 16th 14'

 

"Bridge Of Light"

Just when you think

Hope is lost,

And giving up

Is all you got,

And blue turns black,

Your confidence is cracked,

There seems no turning back from here

Sometimes there isn't an obvious explanation

Why the holiest hearts can feel the strongest palpitations

That's when you can build a bridge of light,

That's what turns the wrong so right

That's when you can't give up the fight

That's when love turns night time into day,

That's when loneliness goes away,

That's why you gotta be strong tonight,

Only love can build us a bridge of light

When your feet are made of stone

And you're convinced that you're all alone

Look at the stars instead of the dark

You'll find your heart shines like the sun

Let's not let our anger get us lost

And the need to be right comes with way too high a cost

That's when love can build a bridge of light

That's what turns the wrong so right

That's when you know it's worth the fight

That's when love turns night time into day

That's when loneliness goes away,

That's why you gotta be strong tonight

'Cause only love can build us a bridge of light

Deep breath, take it on the chin

But don't forget to let the love back in

That's when love can build a bridge of light

That's what turns the wrong so right

That's when you can't give up the fight

And that's when love turns night time into day,

That's when loneliness goes away

That's why you gotta be strong tonight

'Cause only love can build us a bridge of light

Only love can build us a bridge of light...

Of light....

Of light...

Jan 9th 14'

My Birthday

Im nineteenth. 

January 9th.

Start with a warm morning.

My friends were awesome.

Later i got home.

Took the bus.

Surprises. 

Cakes and present.

I thought everything was perfect.

Until now.

The very moment. When i should be sleeping.

I miss my damn *****

My heart hurts.

U know when i have nobody i have that.

Not now.

Almost cried every time i think of it.

2 weeks.

That was how long i had it in my hands.

In my possession.

Now im doomed.

Im not happy.

Still.

The thing is, i cant do anything about it. 

Jan 1st 14'

Happy New Year

Here it goes. 

People wishing happy new year to everybody.

I tweeted.

"At least everybody else is happy, happy new year people."

Almost everyone talk about new year resolutions.

Here's mine.

Nothing.

Because I'm not planning or setting anything for it to be taken away from me. 

I'm not happy.

This moment that would be very true. 

I'm miserable.

Stuck.

Welcome back January.

8 days till my ninetieth birthday.

 

Here goes nothing.